Blame it on my boner reminds me that
When you care a lot about something, it often seems harder to attain. The more valuable something is, the more you see it as being coveted by others as well. And if you don’t feel sure of your worth, you may start to think that you might not deserve whatever it is that you want the most. This is not to advise you to care less about a goal of yours. It is more about loosening your grip just a little bit. As you might try to entice a canary to take a seed from your hand, you need to approach your goal with care and concern, but not with anxiety or desperation.
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
Silent feelings and thoughts lead both sides astray. You and others, if you know what I mean.
So far I know when random occasions become too flexible that people tend to be very flexible too judging you when you are in silence. They only see you for the mistakes – being silent too by not asking you: why.
It is okay.
Perhaps, it should be a consistency. Let yourself speak now or forever remain silent. Never complain that you haven’t been given things to say.
…. and you know you really love some one when you can not hate them for breaking your heart. Besides, nothing lasts forever but the open sky
This is a note for myself.
Something reminds me to my dearest guru, Philip Kitley. He said, “…the word ‘to tolerate’ is about power. By saying “I tolerate” you, you show of having higher position than others. And there is an interesting philosophical question about the word to tolerate” (Philip to me, lunch@bamboo 25/11/2010).
When one day someone tells us of not having wisdom to accept his/her wisdom – we are talking about a similar interesting philosophical question too. Perhaps sometimes we should recognize good wisdom when we claim ourselves as a wise person – even if it means overcoming our pride and opening our mind beyond what is comfortable. Especially when we accuse someone of having arrogance just because we don’t like what they are saying.
Then perhaps, it is a time to recognize that we are not in the center of the universe, not even in the center of our own private universe – yet we cannot face it.
Decaying (thefreedictionary.com): waste away.
I am thinking to walk away then I found this quotes:
Hate no one, no matter how much they have wronged you. Live humbly,no matter how wealthy you become. Think positively,no matter how hard life is. Give much, even if you have been given little. Keep in touch with the ones who have forgotten you and forgive who has wronged you, and do not stop praying for the best for those you love.
(Ali Ibn Abi Talib)
I will do, Ali – as I walk away as it is decaying.
We were listening to the spotify, Frozen‘s soundtrack Let It Go. Then she said:
This is supposed to be a good song. But boys at school make it so horrible.
I asked: How?
She: They make it a poop song (her face was so obviously funny)
I continued: How?
Then she sang, with funny face – of course.
Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold you back anymore
Let it go, let it go
(her face like pushing something but it kind of hurt)
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried
Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Conceal, don’t feel
Don’t let them know
Well, now they know
She ended her story: ‘pretty true though. That’s what I feel now when I sing it in the loo‘
I borrow the picture from here.
Nobody can say anything about you. Whatsoever people say is about themselves. But you become very shaky, because you are still clinging to a false center. That false center depends on others, so you are always looking to what people are saying about you. And you are always following other people, you are always trying to satisfy them. You are always trying to be respectable, you are always trying to decorate your ego.
This is suicidal.
Rather than being disturbed by what others say, you should start looking inside yourself… Whenever you are self-conscious you are simply showing that you are not conscious of the self at all. You don’t know who you are. If you had known, then there would have been no problem— then you are not seeking opinions. Then you are not worried what others say about you— it is irrelevant! When you are self-conscious you are in trouble. When you are self-conscious you are really showing symptoms that you don’t know who you are. Your very self-consciousness indicates that you have not come home yet.
I borrow the picture from here