Ingon-ingon, binatang peliharaan, pets.

When I just came back from Australia, I did not want to have pets. I knew I couldn’t afford them: time and money.

Then I found Possum. Life is easier now after I cut his tail. He wears nappy all the time, so he stays clean. He stays inside, with Gita and I. He shares our bed too. Actually, he shares life with us.

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Weeks ago,someone who is very irresponsible returned our dog, Cindy to us. With my situation, I really did not want to have more pets. And with her slobber all over my place, I think that is too much. All I wanted to do after work was having hot shower, read, write, watch, bludge. They are only in my dream. I keep Cindy. Trying hard to love her. I tried to love Possum. It was very hard, but now, I am falling in love with that cat. I think I can fall in love with Cindy too, someday.

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By the way, what I do after work as soon as I am at home is many things. Cleaning the house, cooking, feeding Gita, feeding my ingon-ingon, playing with them and try to love them, unconditionally.

However, for many people – we were all dead tired by the time we had returned home, so we went to bed early and got some much needed rest. It is not the end of the world. Life goes on, and she’s been really good to me anyway


Just saying


Only a short statement.
I am pretty busy here. A (single) parent. A teacher. A worker. A pets owner. A home maker.
I have no nanny, no driver, no gardener, no house-helper.
It is only Gita, Possum the cat, Cindy the dog and I – live in this messy homey house.
I try my best to keep my house tidy and clean (my apologies if the result is not as good as what you do).
Pardon me, before you judge me, could you please try to walk using my shoes.
No body’s perfect. Not me. Not you.

I borrow the pic from here.



Blame it on my boner reminds me that

When you care a lot about something, it often seems harder to attain. The more valuable something is, the more you see it as being coveted by others as well. And if you don’t feel sure of your worth, you may start to think that you might not deserve whatever it is that you want the most. This is not to advise you to care less about a goal of yours. It is more about loosening your grip just a little bit. As you might try to entice a canary to take a seed from your hand, you need to approach your goal with care and concern, but not with anxiety or desperation.


Silent feelings and thoughts

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Silent feelings and thoughts lead both sides astray. You and others, if you know what I mean.
So far I know when random occasions become too flexible that people tend to be very flexible too judging you when you are in silence. They only see you for the mistakes – being silent too by not asking you: why.

It is okay.

Perhaps, it should be a consistency. Let yourself speak now or forever remain silent. Never complain that you haven’t been given things to say.

…. and you know you really love some one when you can not hate them for breaking your heart. Besides, nothing lasts forever but the open sky



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This is a note for myself.

Something reminds me to my dearest guru, Philip Kitley. He said, “…the word ‘to tolerate’ is about power. By saying “I tolerate” you, you show of having higher position than others. And there is an interesting philosophical question about the word to tolerate” (Philip to me, lunch@bamboo 25/11/2010).

When one day someone tells us of not having wisdom to accept his/her wisdom – we are talking about a similar interesting philosophical question too. Perhaps sometimes we should recognize good wisdom when we claim ourselves as a wise person – even if it means overcoming our pride and opening our mind beyond what is comfortable. Especially when we accuse someone of having arrogance just because we don’t like what they are saying.

Then perhaps, it is a time to recognize that we are not in the center of the universe, not even in the center of our own private universe – yet we cannot face it.



Decaying (thefreedictionary.com): waste away.

I am thinking to walk away then I found this quotes:

Hate no one, no matter how much they have wronged you. Live humbly,no matter how wealthy you become. Think positively,no matter how hard life is. Give much, even if you have been given little. Keep in touch with the ones who have forgotten you and forgive who has wronged you, and do not stop praying for the best for those you love.
(Ali Ibn Abi Talib)

I will do, Ali – as I walk away as it is decaying.